Black and White

You are like the Devil

How many names does that one have

Calculating     Charismatic     Cruel

Made up of only what he desires

I’ve been crazed in love with you devil man

But I’ll not be in league with you again, I see

Coyote gone mad

Chasing your own tail

Tragic, beautiful life

Coyote was a pup once, I saw him then

Silky wiggly sweet, constant kisses from that little wild tongue

Ah the dear prankster, clever beyond a pup’s years,

The element of surprise his cunning

Eyes that held a more mature mystery, hard to look in them, yellow, and way out there

But when this pup would kiss my face then scamper away

Who cared, or took heed from those eyes

So dear was he.

I cried harder than I’ve ever cried the week after I met you again, years later

Full grown, and completely stunning, brilliant genius

Realizing I was going to die with this love, with somebody like you in your black and whites

I sobbed uncontrollably, unable to walk away then

Wrote more than I’ve ever written, the good stuff

Yes, I was a lost soul there for a bit; the crazed artist, alongside you

Interesting to note though

I haven’t cried much since you embraced me firmly for the tossing

I didn’t know how far you’d hurled me till I was bashed

You bought me the ring of our hopes, full circle

Whispered your deepest prayer in my ear, that dark, amazing night

And the very next day you put on lovely music, special, just for me

And as you walked out the door, waving jauntily

“Send me your love” you said

“Do not write, do not call, you laughed

I could not breathe

Now I know where all your art went.

All your enchanted women…

But I have your wild Indian, on his journey

And I’m keeping it close with my prayer

I do send my love, my eyes are dry, but old now.

The other words I have for you are temporary, so unspoken

For it’s true—I do love you more than what I want from you

That meant “nothing” to your calloused broken heart

What happened to you growing up, when did the suffering begin?

Marry the next sweet pup, Old Coyote

But just cut her throat when you’re finished with her

Be kind.